Tuesday, July 19, 2005

more funk-y stuff

I had been bopping along thinking I wasn’t really having any emotional side effects from the Femara, and then I had a bit of a meltdown this afternoon. Which was strangely reassuring, because at my ultrasound today I had no follicles to speak of. It’s CD12. On my Clomid cycles, I’ve ovulated pretty late (ovuLATE? heh) - someplace between CD19 and CD21. But on this last unmedicated cycle, I ovulated on CD13. So I was kinda hoping I had started a new phase in my cycles. But not so much. This is always one of the most demoralizing parts of a cycle for me - I go in for a scan after finishing a round of meds and have apparently nothing to show for it and it makes me think the whole cycle is over. And then I have to remind myself that I’ve been here before, and that when I go back on Friday things will probably be different. And having a meltdown I can pretend to blame on the meds makes it feel like the meds are doing SOMETHING in there.

But it still sucks right now, and I’m still in a funk. And my high school reunion is this weekend. Eh.


  1. I can relate 100%! The cd 12 u/s is the WORST for me - every month, I get nothing that early and become completely depressed and upset until the end of the cycle. My husband is convinced the upset of the u/s screws everything up, so next month I'm making him go with me. Maybe with him holding my hand I won't wind up crying on the u/s table . . . again. Many positive thoughts for lovely follicles at the next appt.

  2. Oh, you can blame anything and everything on the meds. I sure do. You're brave to go to your HS reunion. Mine is coming up in a couple of months, and there's just no way I'm going. Here's hoping for some follicular action come Friday.

  3. Damn Cass, you have fertility drugs coursing through your veins and a high school reunion to contend with. You're a brave woman.